OK, so I am back and ready to try it again.....I worked really hard last summer to lose weight. I felt great. Then.....life threw me some curveballs.
Without getting into things...here is an update....there are positives and negatives
I am now engaged to the most wonderful guy ever! He is def. a gift...and there isn't one day that I take him for granted. I beginning to become more financially stable and that is def a huge stress reliever for me. As of January I started a new job, which for the most part I love! All these things in my life have been amazing, but unfortunately my back is not any better. In fact, it has put a huge damper on things. I used that as an excuse to let my weight get back up there. I am so good at finding any excuse when it comes to weightloss. It's so much easier to eat junk and satisfy myself. I make myself believe that the junk is a good substitute for my emotions. What I realize now is that it's a viscous cycle that goes something like this.....I get upset, sad, mad, depressed, or in pain and then I eat everything in site so try to relieve those feelings. All that does is make me unhealthy, overweight, and back to where I started emotionally in the beginning of the cycle. I am still working on how to use other methods when it comes to eating. I want to go for things that are healthy. It's def a matter of training. I was told yesterday that it is mind over matter. I read that letter I wrote to myself a while back for moments like these. At first I felt ashamed that I continue to let myself get this way. I have let my daughter, my family, and myself down. I need to suck it up and pick myself up.
I've seen how well and how hard my sister has worked towards her weightloss and I want to use her as my inspiration because she looks amazing! She has lost about 55 lbs in a year.
So this is what I am working with now....
As of April 14, 2012 I weighed in at 221 lbs
measurements: neck 16.5
L arm 13.25
R arm 13.25
Chest 48.5
Diaphram 42
Waist 47.5
Abdomen 46
Butt 48
L thigh 26.5
R thigh 25
L calf 16.5
R calf 16.5
I will be weighing in tomorrow.....so I'll let you know how it goes. I am using the Isagenix program right now and just finished day 2 (cleanse days). I have 5 shake days coming up next. I'll keep ya up to date.
Tuesday, April 17, 2012
Thursday, August 25, 2011
Weight UPDATE
WEEKLY WEIGHT LOSS
213.2 - 211.4 =1.8
Total Weight Loss
227.2 - 211.4= 15.8 lbs (since 7/14/11)
254.0 - 211.4 = 42.6 lbs (since 11/01/10)
Measurements
DAY 1 TODAY
waist - 48 in waist - 44.0 in
hips - 52 in hips - 49.0 in
chest - 49.5 in chest - 45 in
thigh - 26 in thigh - 25.0 in
L arm - 15.5 in L arm - 14.5 in
213.2 - 211.4 =1.8
Total Weight Loss
227.2 - 211.4= 15.8 lbs (since 7/14/11)
254.0 - 211.4 = 42.6 lbs (since 11/01/10)
Measurements
DAY 1 TODAY
waist - 48 in waist - 44.0 in
hips - 52 in hips - 49.0 in
chest - 49.5 in chest - 45 in
thigh - 26 in thigh - 25.0 in
L arm - 15.5 in L arm - 14.5 in
Wednesday, August 17, 2011
Day 35...............8-17-11
Day 35
Although I don't blog as much as I did in the beginning rest-assure, I am working just as hard if not harder then ever! As you may have noticed by my results, I continue to drop the weight and I feel a lot more healthy!
Lets catch up....For the most part the week has been pretty typical, but there are a few things I feel I need to "let out" I guess. Part of this journey I'm on is not only about loosing weight and becoming healthy on the outside, but also changing some things about me on the inside. By doing that, I have began to force myself to do my best to express how I am feeling, especially if something is bothering me. Although, it hasn't been easy for me because I'm afraid...the results haven't been too bad and it def. helps me.
This Sunday, at a family cookout I was completely ignored by an aunt. I know that her and my mom have not always had the best relationship and lately doesn't seem to be a relationship at all, but to completely ignore your neice when she says "Bye Aunty" is uncalled for and hurtful. I don't believe that I have done anything to her. Although, it upset me I knew that I was an adult and did the right thing by saying good-bye to her.
Also, an even bigger and more important issue that really stabs me in the heart is constantly getting the cold-shoulder from my sister-in-law who absolutely hates me! I know that I've done things in my past that have made my family very disapointed, but I'm NOT that person anymore! In fact, I've strived so hard to never, ever be that person again! I've come a long way in the last two years and feel like Emily and I are in a great place in our lives and it is only getting better. She holds my past against me and there for does not like me. Last Sunday, when she completely ignored me and was rude, that was the last straw. I was in tears when I left the cookout. She talks to everyone else and says good-bye to everyone and bluntly doesn't give two shits about me. It would be nice of her to atleast pretend she may care about my feelings, or atleast say good-bye to me. I felt like I couldn't hold it in any longer, it has been tearing me up inside. My relationship with my brother is already rough, so dealing with her on top of it is just another stab in the heart. I text me brother and first thanked him for the compliment he gave me about looking great. Then I explained to him how much I've changed and I wanted both him and my sister-in-law to see that. From what I gathered from the conversation my sister-in-law is done, there is no fixing our relationship. So, I said I needed to move on and focus on my relationship with my brother because that is more important to me. I know that what I have done in my past and the choices I made have screwed up the relationship we had, and God knows if I could take it back I would in a heartbeat, but I can't! It eats away at me everyday.....All I can continue to do now is do what I am doing. I am proud of myself for getting to where I am today. I hated the person I was before, but I felt so alone and made poor choices to cope with it. I hope my brother can atleast understand where I am coming from and know that I am trying my best now because I am a stronger person. It hurts so much that I don;t have the relationship I did with him before. I think about my mom and how she doesn't talk to any of her siblings, I can't let that happen! My brother said he is starting to notice the changing I've made and encouraged me to continue, which I know I am!
I put a quote up on Facebook the other night that I will continue to live by...."I can't change others, I can only continue to make my own positive changes." ~Me
So, even though the relationship with my brother isn't near where I want it to be, I feel better that I have atleast expressed how I felt. It will be up to him as to how he uses that information. The last thing I want to do is cause any harm in his marriage simply because I would like to have a relationship with him. I can't make him change, I can only express how I am feeling. I am going to continue to work on my relationship with him....I will never stop trying. I don't see him often and he bases his judgements on what he hears from others, rather then from me. I want him to be able to talk to me, and ask me what is going on. I know he has tried before (2 years ago) and I snapped at him, but I'm NOT THAT person anymore and THAT'S what I need to show him. I would love more then anything to have him and his family over to my place for dinner, so they can see how well I'm doing.....maybe one day, but as I see it now I can't hold my breath for it.
With aaaalllllll that said, through it all......I am happy to say.....I did NOT use food to comfort me!!! I spoke my feelings and used my support system to my advantage! I want to thank all of you who have continued to encourage me through-out this process, it means more then you will ever know!
I also want to thank my sister, her encouragement and weightloss success has been such an inspiration to me. I love my sister so much, and am so proud of her! I've always looked up to her and I see just how strong she really is! I think this journey for both of us is slowly making us closer and I try to embrace that as much as possible! I love you Sis! I know I messed up.....I know! Like I said I can't take it back, but I'm truly doing my best now to be the best person I can be for both Emily and I. I hope you know that? I hope someone sees it......all I can do is do it for myself....I can see it! I'm starting to actually love myself as a person....it's been a very very long time since I've felt this way. I probably haven't loved myself since 2002 right before meeting Larry. I'm just beginning to feel that way and know that it will come in time.....
Thanks Again everyone :)
Although I don't blog as much as I did in the beginning rest-assure, I am working just as hard if not harder then ever! As you may have noticed by my results, I continue to drop the weight and I feel a lot more healthy!
Lets catch up....For the most part the week has been pretty typical, but there are a few things I feel I need to "let out" I guess. Part of this journey I'm on is not only about loosing weight and becoming healthy on the outside, but also changing some things about me on the inside. By doing that, I have began to force myself to do my best to express how I am feeling, especially if something is bothering me. Although, it hasn't been easy for me because I'm afraid...the results haven't been too bad and it def. helps me.
This Sunday, at a family cookout I was completely ignored by an aunt. I know that her and my mom have not always had the best relationship and lately doesn't seem to be a relationship at all, but to completely ignore your neice when she says "Bye Aunty" is uncalled for and hurtful. I don't believe that I have done anything to her. Although, it upset me I knew that I was an adult and did the right thing by saying good-bye to her.
Also, an even bigger and more important issue that really stabs me in the heart is constantly getting the cold-shoulder from my sister-in-law who absolutely hates me! I know that I've done things in my past that have made my family very disapointed, but I'm NOT that person anymore! In fact, I've strived so hard to never, ever be that person again! I've come a long way in the last two years and feel like Emily and I are in a great place in our lives and it is only getting better. She holds my past against me and there for does not like me. Last Sunday, when she completely ignored me and was rude, that was the last straw. I was in tears when I left the cookout. She talks to everyone else and says good-bye to everyone and bluntly doesn't give two shits about me. It would be nice of her to atleast pretend she may care about my feelings, or atleast say good-bye to me. I felt like I couldn't hold it in any longer, it has been tearing me up inside. My relationship with my brother is already rough, so dealing with her on top of it is just another stab in the heart. I text me brother and first thanked him for the compliment he gave me about looking great. Then I explained to him how much I've changed and I wanted both him and my sister-in-law to see that. From what I gathered from the conversation my sister-in-law is done, there is no fixing our relationship. So, I said I needed to move on and focus on my relationship with my brother because that is more important to me. I know that what I have done in my past and the choices I made have screwed up the relationship we had, and God knows if I could take it back I would in a heartbeat, but I can't! It eats away at me everyday.....All I can continue to do now is do what I am doing. I am proud of myself for getting to where I am today. I hated the person I was before, but I felt so alone and made poor choices to cope with it. I hope my brother can atleast understand where I am coming from and know that I am trying my best now because I am a stronger person. It hurts so much that I don;t have the relationship I did with him before. I think about my mom and how she doesn't talk to any of her siblings, I can't let that happen! My brother said he is starting to notice the changing I've made and encouraged me to continue, which I know I am!
I put a quote up on Facebook the other night that I will continue to live by...."I can't change others, I can only continue to make my own positive changes." ~Me
So, even though the relationship with my brother isn't near where I want it to be, I feel better that I have atleast expressed how I felt. It will be up to him as to how he uses that information. The last thing I want to do is cause any harm in his marriage simply because I would like to have a relationship with him. I can't make him change, I can only express how I am feeling. I am going to continue to work on my relationship with him....I will never stop trying. I don't see him often and he bases his judgements on what he hears from others, rather then from me. I want him to be able to talk to me, and ask me what is going on. I know he has tried before (2 years ago) and I snapped at him, but I'm NOT THAT person anymore and THAT'S what I need to show him. I would love more then anything to have him and his family over to my place for dinner, so they can see how well I'm doing.....maybe one day, but as I see it now I can't hold my breath for it.
With aaaalllllll that said, through it all......I am happy to say.....I did NOT use food to comfort me!!! I spoke my feelings and used my support system to my advantage! I want to thank all of you who have continued to encourage me through-out this process, it means more then you will ever know!
I also want to thank my sister, her encouragement and weightloss success has been such an inspiration to me. I love my sister so much, and am so proud of her! I've always looked up to her and I see just how strong she really is! I think this journey for both of us is slowly making us closer and I try to embrace that as much as possible! I love you Sis! I know I messed up.....I know! Like I said I can't take it back, but I'm truly doing my best now to be the best person I can be for both Emily and I. I hope you know that? I hope someone sees it......all I can do is do it for myself....I can see it! I'm starting to actually love myself as a person....it's been a very very long time since I've felt this way. I probably haven't loved myself since 2002 right before meeting Larry. I'm just beginning to feel that way and know that it will come in time.....
Thanks Again everyone :)
Weight UPDATE
WEEKLY WEIGHT LOSS
215.6 - 213.2 =2.4 lbs
Total Weight Loss
227.2 - 213.2= 14 lbs (since 7/14/11)
254.0 - 213.2 = 40.8 lbs (since 11/01/10)
Measurements
DAY 1 TODAY
waist - 48 in waist - 45.0 in
hips - 52 in hips - 49.0 in
chest - 49.5 in chest - 46.5 in
thigh - 26 in thigh - 25.0 in
L arm - 15.5 in L arm - 15.0 in
215.6 - 213.2 =2.4 lbs
Total Weight Loss
227.2 - 213.2= 14 lbs (since 7/14/11)
254.0 - 213.2 = 40.8 lbs (since 11/01/10)
Measurements
DAY 1 TODAY
waist - 48 in waist - 45.0 in
hips - 52 in hips - 49.0 in
chest - 49.5 in chest - 46.5 in
thigh - 26 in thigh - 25.0 in
L arm - 15.5 in L arm - 15.0 in
Wednesday, August 10, 2011
Day 28...............8-10-11
Day 28
Well I haven't been on much due to being so busy! School has now taken up a good chunk of my life, and it's only just begun! It's OK though - I know it won't be forever.
So, as you may have noticed I have been doing well for myself. I've just made it through my first month on my journey to a healthier life and have lost almost 12 lbs in a month. Although I've have moments that I am extremely proud of myself, overall I'm still not there yet. I know that I could have done better. My main goal I would like to work on this month is go create a set exercising schedule. I was going very well in the beginning, but recently having been doing so much. I was doing pretty well up until about a week ago. I started slowing down with my workouts and last Sunday everything came to a hault. I was coming out of my parents camper and as I stepped onto the deck (with flip-flops) I slipped and almost fell. Although I was able to catch myself, I twisted my back. Because of the pain factor I hadn't exercised for a few days. Yesterday Emily and I went for a walk that was about 1.5 miles and we also played the wii for a bit. I know my back will be a constant issue for me, so I need to find a way to work around that. My back hurts whether I work out or not, so I don't want to start using it as an excuse.
I have done very well as far as my eating goes. I'm beginning to learn how to listen to what my body is telling me. It's a process I'm still working on and will continue working on, but has definately gotten better. I think out of the 28 days I've been doing this I know of only 1 day that I maybe ate more than I should have even though it wasn't anything too unhealthy. It was more about portion control or lack there of!
I know that my weightloss will start to slow down, so I want to try to create ways to trick my body each week into thinking I'm starting a new "diet" I'm not quite sure how to do that. It may just be a matter of changing my workout routine. Any suggestions would be helpful. OK, off to workout with Jillian from Biggest Loser for the Wii :)
Well I haven't been on much due to being so busy! School has now taken up a good chunk of my life, and it's only just begun! It's OK though - I know it won't be forever.
So, as you may have noticed I have been doing well for myself. I've just made it through my first month on my journey to a healthier life and have lost almost 12 lbs in a month. Although I've have moments that I am extremely proud of myself, overall I'm still not there yet. I know that I could have done better. My main goal I would like to work on this month is go create a set exercising schedule. I was going very well in the beginning, but recently having been doing so much. I was doing pretty well up until about a week ago. I started slowing down with my workouts and last Sunday everything came to a hault. I was coming out of my parents camper and as I stepped onto the deck (with flip-flops) I slipped and almost fell. Although I was able to catch myself, I twisted my back. Because of the pain factor I hadn't exercised for a few days. Yesterday Emily and I went for a walk that was about 1.5 miles and we also played the wii for a bit. I know my back will be a constant issue for me, so I need to find a way to work around that. My back hurts whether I work out or not, so I don't want to start using it as an excuse.
I have done very well as far as my eating goes. I'm beginning to learn how to listen to what my body is telling me. It's a process I'm still working on and will continue working on, but has definately gotten better. I think out of the 28 days I've been doing this I know of only 1 day that I maybe ate more than I should have even though it wasn't anything too unhealthy. It was more about portion control or lack there of!
I know that my weightloss will start to slow down, so I want to try to create ways to trick my body each week into thinking I'm starting a new "diet" I'm not quite sure how to do that. It may just be a matter of changing my workout routine. Any suggestions would be helpful. OK, off to workout with Jillian from Biggest Loser for the Wii :)
Weight UPDATE
WEEKLY WEIGHT LOSS
216.8 - 215.6 = 1.2 lbs
Total Weight Loss
227.2 - 215.6= 11.6 lbs (since 7/14/11)
254.0 - 216.8 = 38.4 lbs (since 11/01/10)
Measurements
DAY 1 TODAY
waist - 48 in waist - 45.5 in
hips - 52 in hips - 49.5 in
chest - 49.5 in chest - 46.5 in
thigh - 26 in thigh - 25.5 in
L arm - 15.5 in L arm - 15.0 in
216.8 - 215.6 = 1.2 lbs
Total Weight Loss
227.2 - 215.6= 11.6 lbs (since 7/14/11)
254.0 - 216.8 = 38.4 lbs (since 11/01/10)
Measurements
DAY 1 TODAY
waist - 48 in waist - 45.5 in
hips - 52 in hips - 49.5 in
chest - 49.5 in chest - 46.5 in
thigh - 26 in thigh - 25.5 in
L arm - 15.5 in L arm - 15.0 in
Wednesday, August 3, 2011
Weight UPDATE
WEEKLY WEIGHT LOSS
220.0 - 216.8 = 3.2 lbs
Total Weight Loss
227.2 - 216.8 = 10.4 lbs (since 7/14/11)
254.0 - 216.8 = 37.2 lbs (since 11/01/10)
Measurements
DAY 1 TODAY
waist - 48 in waist - 45.5 in
hips - 52 in hips - 49.5 in
chest - 49.5 in chest - 46.5 in
thigh - 26 in thigh - 25.5 in
L arm - 15.5 in L arm - 15.0 in
220.0 - 216.8 = 3.2 lbs
Total Weight Loss
227.2 - 216.8 = 10.4 lbs (since 7/14/11)
254.0 - 216.8 = 37.2 lbs (since 11/01/10)
Measurements
DAY 1 TODAY
waist - 48 in waist - 45.5 in
hips - 52 in hips - 49.5 in
chest - 49.5 in chest - 46.5 in
thigh - 26 in thigh - 25.5 in
L arm - 15.5 in L arm - 15.0 in
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